Living vs. Existing

Life is tiring when you don't have what you want...or what you think you want. Unfortunately, my want is more of a need. You need money to live a decent life. At this point, I don't want to "get ahead"....I'd be more than happy with just paying bills on time and be able to pay off 1/4 of my/our debts. I try to count my blessings every day, but I can't sit here and wish that we could just grow bananas or something and use that as barter...lol. I don't like to feel like I am just existing. I want to LIVE, and I feel like I am not making good use of my time right now.

That being said, I hope I can use my weekend to re-charge...re-energize.